Rest? Slow down? Listen to my body?
HA!
Well, let me tell you something about me.
Shhhh, don't tell anyone.
I tell my body off everyday.
Who wants to listen to a body like mine? Who?
With a mind that goes a million miles an hour...
Has an entrepreneurial spirit ~
Is very alive! enthusiastic! energetic!
But a body that is busted up, bruised, stiff,
slow, battered, sick and weak.
Heck, I walk and feel like an elderly woman.
This is a giant "difference of opinion", if you will...
My mind has been trying to win this argument.
But my body
is a great debater.
It is now forcing my mind to give in.
How, you may ask...
I just hit walls now.
*BAM* and I am down and out...
for a nap.
I am a one way ticket ~ anywhere.
Perhaps I may make plans to go someplace local
but I might hit the wall on the way home ~
*bam* while driving is not a safe idea.
So I don't travel. Even to my doctors in Boston ~
Or to see my Mom.
So, I am making a new decision.
This first year of my new diagnosis with Rheumatoid Arthritis
has been challenging, eye-opening, enriching, scary ~
but a journey of continuous learning, and of self-awareness.
One of the biggest tools in my
"Toolbox for Life"
has been resting.
Yup.
My body won.
My body won the debate.
Trust me when I say, my mind is a great debater,
and didn't want to lose this one...
However, since I have been taking naps often~
Meditating everyday,
truly listening to my body when it is crashing...
I am getting better.
Not even close to where
I want to be...but baby steps.
Now, imagine if I listen to my body ~
Before it crashes.
Healing hugs,
~Alicia
